Author Archives: Alisa

The infamous one year anniversary is coming up.  It looms over us and threatens to rob each day of any joy. It never leaves the mind and causes weariness, and leaves us begging for peace, comfort, a pain free moment. … Continue reading →

Another holiday.  Oh how we hate holidays this year.  We miss him more than words could ever adequately express, so I won’t even try. Easter means so many different things to so many different people. It means Easter egg hunts, … Continue reading →

This song was written by singer and song writer Steven Curtis Chapman, after losing his daughter in a tragic accident. It says what I wish I could say, in such a beautiful way, and it resonates with my heart and soul.  It … Continue reading →

I had a precious friend write me this morning, and ask me this, “I am going to a funeral in the morning of a friend that has lost her son. Is there something that a friend said to you that … Continue reading →

Kay Warren lost her son exactly one month before we lost Grant.  Her son was 27, Grant, almost 25.  Her son died April 5, 2013, Grant, May 5, 2013. My heart breaks for her today as I think of her … Continue reading →

I have been missing you for almost a year.  Every moment of everyday, missing, longing, aching.  Long phone calls have been replaced with faded memories.  The joy of Holidays and family vacations, are now threatened with sadness, aching masked with … Continue reading →

I desperately want to know how this ends.  When will happy be my default again?  When will I be able to get thru a day without crying? Ten years from now, when I look back on this, will I be … Continue reading →

“God is not a belief to which you give your assent. God becomes a reality whom you know intimately, meet everyday, one whose strength becomes your strength, whose love, your love. Live this life of the presence of God long … Continue reading →

As I walk thru this valley it is crucial that I remember joy and happiness are not the same thing.  Happiness comes from circumstance and therefore can come and go, wane back and forth.  Up one minute, down the next, … Continue reading →

I am feeling weak and sad today.  Grant’s little sister had such a hard day yesterday, tears, far away looks, no appetite.  Another fitful night with haunting dreams for me, waking before the sun and absorbing the reality again, of … Continue reading →