Monthly Archives: July 2013

I find her laying on her bed weeping, his 16 year old little sister. In anguish, as she lays there looking at pictures of the two of them, the last time they were together. I sit next to her, rub … Continue reading →

I was talking to Grant’s old room mate a few nights ago; one of his best friends, more like a brother really.  We were checking in on each other.  As I asked him how he was doing, I was struck … Continue reading →

I know God is real and near to me. More now than ever before. What proof can I offer? I have cried out out in unimaginable pain. I have yelled at God, and screamed out my why questions. I have … Continue reading →

I don’t know the originator of this list but I share it here because so many of you have asked how you can help, what to say, what not to say…  I hope it doesn’t come across as self-serving I … Continue reading →

I can’t back it up Biblically, but I believe there is healing in crying; tears bring restoration one drop at a time. So I am learning to let the tears fall when they come.  I was having one of those … Continue reading →

I have been a fairly strong believer since I was 18.  I have loved the Lord and walked closely with Him for 34 years.  There has never been a day, in all that time, that I have doubted the truth … Continue reading →

Hard night. Hard morning. Grief is such a strange thing.  You can feel like things are getting a little easier, and then without warning you find yourself consumed with fresh sadness, and weeping again with little relief in sight.  I … Continue reading →

I was lying in bed recently tossing and turning trying to get back to sleep. However, sleep was escaping me. I was fretful and consumed with thoughts of the future. Spreading Grant’s ashes, where will I find the strength? Our … Continue reading →

I had a dream about Grant the other night. Everything was normal, the old normal. We were talking on the phone, him telling me a story about something that had happened at work. We were laughing. Then, as it happens … Continue reading →

I stand in the waves. They come rolling in, one after another. They pound against me, knocking me off balance. I barely get my bearings and the next one is right there threatening to knock me over. There’s a short … Continue reading →