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I was lying in bed recently tossing and turning trying to get back to sleep. However, sleep was escaping me. I was fretful and consumed with thoughts of the future. Spreading Grant’s ashes, where will I find the strength? Our … Continue reading →

I had a dream about Grant the other night. Everything was normal, the old normal. We were talking on the phone, him telling me a story about something that had happened at work. We were laughing. Then, as it happens … Continue reading →

I stand in the waves. They come rolling in, one after another. They pound against me, knocking me off balance. I barely get my bearings and the next one is right there threatening to knock me over. There’s a short … Continue reading →

I had a full life. Full of laughter. Full of joy. Full of hopes and dreams. Now, at times, life feels empty. A deep devastating emptiness devoid of purpose. Empty promises. Empty arms. Empty place at the table. Empty spot … Continue reading →

Verbiage. It’s a strange thing.  But I believe it matters.  The way we say things reveals our heart, what we truly believe.  Matthew 12 :34 says, For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.  That’s why I find … Continue reading →

This is a verse I have struggled with since May 5th. The Lord has brought it to mind many times.  “Give thanks, Lord? For this? I understand it’s your will, and I am choosing to trust that will, day-by-day in … Continue reading →

Sitting on the beach today. Grant should have been sitting here with me. Both of us, book in hand, talking about this and that. Watching him play volleyball with his little sister. Reluctantly agreeing to ride bikes with me up … Continue reading →

Events once celebrated, still celebrated by most families, have now become a test of endurance for us. We leave for vacation tomorrow. A vacation that Grant was scheduled to join us, share in our fun and memories. And now instead, … Continue reading →

Grace, what is it?  It’s a word we throw around quite a bit in our Christian verbiage. A quick google search will give you this definition: Grace is God’s unmerited favor. It is kindness from God we don’t deserve. There is … Continue reading →

Yes, I will see him again…but not here.  Yes, I am grateful he is with his Savior, but I have empty arms here.  I know I will never understand God’s plans, but what about the plans we had, Grant had.  … Continue reading →